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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
9:27 pm	Lonely... It seems like everyone's with someone except me. Charles has Shawn, Allie has Tim, Caroline is on a date with some girl tonight, then there's Joe and Lindsay and Matt (DeSesa) and his girlfriend. From what Mom tells me, its possible Matt (hermano) has a girlfriend now too (do you?). I have NO ONE. I know I'm young, but it's PATHETIC. I'm probably the only person in the entire bloody school, or at least one of the only people, who has NEVER had a boyfriend/girlfriend. Hell, I've never even KISSED a guy/girl. I was talking to Caroline and Lindsay Wednesday and caroline says "Well, it's not so bad. I've only kissed 4 guys. And only made out with three!" That's a fuck of a lot!!! I was talking with Ufa today and was getting kinda depressed about it all, and he said "You're not with someone cuz no one's good enough." That made me happy. <3 Ufa. Lol. Why though? I know I'm not the most attractive person in the world (by far), I don't have the best body, yes, I'm weird, but there have got to be some good things about me! And the only guys that DO like me are either perverts, fundies, or 8 years older than me. Let's start from the beginning... First there was Byron, who last year wanted to have sex with me, and because I was a stupid, vulnerable freshman, I almost did. Now I look back and am disgusted at myself for even CONSIDERING that, but am happy with myself for pulling out of it. Then there was John. Creepy-ass fundie guy. At first, I thought he was really cool. LOTR fan, Dragonlance fan, nice guy. Even the dead-on Gollum impersonation was awesome, but after a while it got extremely creepy. After he asked me out, I just started to realize how creepy he was. Also, there's the fundie part. A total, ignorant, close-minded Jesus freak. I'll never forget the time we were talking about why I'm not Catholic and I said something along the lines of "I don't need God in my life" and he said "Well then your life is going to be very empty." I seriously wished at the point I had never MET him, much less agreed to go to prom with him. Why DID I agree to go to prom with him? Was it because he kinda got me on the spot? Because he was "charming"? I'll never know. After I said yes and started to realize what a huge mistake I made, I started to wonder not "Why does this always happen to me?" but "Why do I do this to myself?" If I had just thought it over for two seconds and said "No" or at least "I'll think about it," I wouldn't have been so miserable. Then there was pervert #2 at Eric's graduation party. The guy was hitting on me non-stop. Hell, he was trying to act out parts of the Kama Sutra with me. For some reason, I played along for a while, then I started to get grossed out. Another "Why do I do this to myself?" moment. The latest guy to hit on me I met when Melissa and I went to Ultrazone. He worked there, so I kinda figured he'd be older, but we were talking for a while and he seemed pretty cool. I probably would have gone out with him once or twice if it weren't for the fact that he was 23. Now, I have nothing against going out with older guys. In fact, I prefer older guys. But there's the issue that mom would never let me date a 23 year old, at least now. And with all the guys/girls I DO like it's either impossible, or they don't like me. There are a few gpeople every once in a while at school I'll like, but it's not like they'd ever feel the same about me. I think the only guy I've ever had serious feelings for that I THINK has had feelings for me as well is AJ, but for obvious reasons, that's impossible. To go slightly off topic, on being open about my sexuality. Most of my friends know I'm bi. Actually, most people in school probably at least suspect it. I tell mom everything, pretty much. I talk to her about stuff in school, about my friends, and about my political views. She KNOWS how adamant I am on gay rights. But now I think she suspects something. We were in the mall tonight, and earlier I had mentioned that I have a lot of gay and bi friends. She said that if I ever turned gay, she wouldn't be happy, but she'd accept it, which is always good to know. She asked me if I was gay; I said no, because I'm not. I'm bi. I know I probably should have felt bad about lying, but technically it wasn't lying at all. Now, if she had asked me if I was bi, I might have said yes. That would have been the perfect moment to do it too. Ah, well. If the time comes where I feel the need to come out to her, then I will. That may be sooner, or later, or it may never happen, but it still won't be a pleasant thing to do. So, yeah. I'm alone. Probably always will be. Holy fuck, I'm gonna die a virgin. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Anything that isn't a love song (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
6:06 pm	Update Let's seee.... Okay, the day after I went to see Saw (haha seesaw) with Matt, I went out with Andrea to see it (FINALLY!). We've been planning to get together for so long, but we never did, so it was great to see her again. Her sister and another friend of hers were also there. We had so much fun. Been taking driver's ed. Oh, God, it's HELL! There are a few cool people there, but not many people I've gotten to be good friends with. Ah, well. At least it's easy. I can pay hardly any attention, and still pass the tests with flying colours. And during our breaks, we get to go down to the 7/11 and get snacks. It's beuno. Lol. The only thing that bugs is I have to miss Lost. I spent the last Wednesday class worrying about if mom's going to remember to hit record on my VCR or not. She did (thankfully!). It was Sayid's episode, so I'm SO happy I didn't miss it! Holy shit, Sayid's hot! Me and caroline both came out about how hot is he at like the same time at the assembly on Thursday. On Friday during 12 and 13 (my favorite mods!) we decided to call him Sexy Ocelot. ^_^ He'll never replace our Sexy Chipmunk, but he deserves a cute cuddly mammal name too, just cuz he's SO DAMN HOT. <3 Sayid Hmm.... Went to go see National Treature last night, but it was sold out, so I decided to go see Ray, but that was also sold out, so I then figured I'd see Finding Neverland, but THAT was sold out at well! See, this is why I rarely ever go to the movies past 7 on a Friday or Saturday night. Wound up going to see The Spongebob Movie, which was kinda funny. It was basically just a long, stretched-out episode, but it was still good. Mom called me to say that she and Fr. Richard were going out to dinner, and that I can wander around the Avenue or go to the mall or something. So I go to Barnes and Noble, which I LOVE and just wander for an hour. I wind up getting a book about learning to speak Japanese, which is something I've been trying to teach myself for a while, but the internet is NOT the best place to learn a foriegn language. So yeah. I spent most of today just hanging out ad studying my Japanese book. OH! AJ signed on today! He was at someone elses comp, but he was on for about half an hour! OMG it was great! We didn't say anything much, but I just missed talking to him so much! YAY! ^_^ Yeah, so that's all. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Snow Patrol "Run" (Comment on this)
Friday, November 12th, 2004
10:31 pm	Saw Matt came home from college today. Took me to see Saw (haha seesaw). Wow. First off, let me say that whatever dumbass critic said Saw was a bad movie IS A MORON. The basic premise of the movie is this: a guy finds people who have issues and puts them in a situation where there life is in danger, in order to make them appreciate what they have. I don't want to give too much away, but it's scary as hell. If you haven't seen it, go. It'll scar you for life, but it WILL be worth it. It makes you appreciate life in a sick, twisted, morbid way. Current Mood: scared Current Music: ... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
9:29 pm	:-( All I can say right now is poor Ufa. The guy goes through so much crap in life, I feel so bad for him. And he doesn't deserve it either; he's too cool of a guy to have to go through this shit. It's like if he's not stressed out about something, then something else bad is happening around him. :-( I guess the constant spleen pokes don't help either. :-/ In other news, the bus didn't show up today so I stayed home. Wh00t! Lost rocked. Still don't like Sawyer (or whatever his name is), but at least I understand him now. Almost cried when sayid left. And judging from the preview for next week, I should worry. Sayid rocks. So does Charlie. And Boone. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: "I Can't Win" by The Strokes (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
8:56 pm	Is it Wednesday yet? Just wanted to update since I haven't in a few days. Not much huge has gone on. Matt stole my Someone Less Dumb for President button. Want it back. He's been beating the shit out of me because I poke him. I think I have a concussion. :-( Am SO crazy. So is Caroline. Our love for Chipmunk is bordering on fangirlishness. I's quite scary. We now have our own cult called The way of the Chipmunk. Have been trying to convert people, but to no avail. We'll show them...we'll show them all!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *cough* Ahem. I even wrote the 10 Commandments of Chipmunk. SO weird. The 10 Commandments of Chipmunk 1. Thou shalt not have any other small fluffy animals before Chipmunk 2. Thou shalt not use the name of any rodent in a mean or degrading manner 3. Thou shalt worship sexy Chipmunk pictures 4. Keep holy the Sabbath (Wednesday) 5. Honor the Chipmunk, and listen to him, for he has good taste in music 6. Though shalt destroy those who do not worship Chipmunk 7. Though shalt not lust after any other small fluffy animal, unless it be Chipmunk/Rodent Boy slash, or if need be (ie; Lost is preempted for some reason) 8. Thou shalt download Chipmunk off the Internet, and not rightclicksave 9. Thou shalt covet thy neighbor's Chipmunk and Chipmunk memorabilia 10. Is it Wednesday yet? Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Mighty Mighty Bosstones "Let's face It" album (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
7:47 pm	Dzaidzi Doing this project for sacraments; a post-All Souls day thing. We have to interview someone about a dead relative or friend, and later we'll do a project about it. Of course, I (thankfully) don't have too many options. The only people that I could do really that I was close to were Mr Fred and Dzaidzi. I chose Dzaidzi. I tried to call dad earlier to get some info, but he wasn't there, so Barb told me so much; a surprising amount I didn't even know! I had to cut it short, even though I could have gone on for hours about him, because I had to shower. Barb and I both were doing okay until she told the story of how the day of the funeral, the phone rung at 5 AM and Dzaidzi was on the other line. Then we both broke down. I went upstairs and got in the shower and did all my crying then. I'm trying not to cry as I type this. There's no reason to. I know that Dzaidzi is happy wherever he is, and there's no need to be sad. Must go. Starting to cry again. I miss Dzaidzi. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Some song from Lit...I don't remember what it's called. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
7:22 pm	Bored I'm bored as hell (and putting off my geometry homework), so I'm putting random adopty thingies and quiz results and whatever the hell else I feel like here. I adopted a cute lil' fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' fetus in a tie from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' patriotic fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' pilgrim fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' fairy fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' pirate fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' santa fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' birthday fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' Scotty fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' kitty fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' dragon fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' gothy fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' monkey fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' baby jesus fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' tempura fetus from Fetusmart! mm..yummy. I adopted a cute lil' death fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' emo fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' halloweeny fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' giraffe fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' viking fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' ninja fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' easter bunny fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' mummy fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' batman fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' superman fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' clown fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' pikachu fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' cow fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' mouse fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! I adopted a cute lil' January birthstone fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus! You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time alone but do like other people's company sometimes. You just need your space. You have a few priviledged friends who saw past your colder exterior to find the true you. You can have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to admit it) so you could be soft one second then storming around the next! But over all, you're a very pleasant person once people take the time to get to know you. You're a good friend for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when it comes to creative things.(If you can't see tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the bottom and find your result) What season are you? (pics) brought to you by Quizilla Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness in the past, and you're now trying to get out of it. The darkness is already inside you, and getting it out will be hard, but if you try, maybe one day you can be who you want to be again. Don't give in!!! Please rate ^^ What kind of dark person are you? brought to you by Quizilla Your anime hair color is blue. What is your anime hair color? brought to you by Quizilla img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/carmabell/1096510755_turesblack.jpg" border="0" alt="zsfg"> You're a "Black Angel" which means your an Angel of Death. You don't really care much about people (and if you do, it's just a few) since no one was particularly nice to you. You're always alone unless forced to be with other people and you love to cause trouble. You feel depressed a lot and don't have someone that could cheer you up like most people but probably something else. You love to be alone to think and like the night because it provides solitude which makes you a very logical person. You're very secretive. (if you cannot see the pics, go near the bottom of my homepage and find your result. look closely to make sure your look in the right place) What Color Angel Are You? (ANIME PICS) brought to you by Quizilla You're a mermaid. The stereotypical mermaid had a long, fish-like tail that blended with the human torso at the hips and almost white skin with red hair or some off color like green or blue. They were the most fantastic singers and the siren type of mermaids would lure sailors with their lovely lullaby into dangerous rocks. They were mostly harmless and peacefull and they were content to simply sit on the beach combing their hair or in the water playing with friends. They never wore clothes and were always women. They were sweet and a little deciteful at times. (If you cannot see the picture, go to my userpage and look near the bottom. There should be the picture and description for all the results) What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures) brought to you by Quizilla You're Brigitte Bardot! What Classic Pin-Up Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Haha! Yeah, right.) Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and show their love to everyone in the world. What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla (See a few results up. Dude, these quizzes are weird...) You are most like Anjiru (Angel)the half angel, half wolf demon. Your kind, caring and playful. you love to fly and have a lot of fun with your pack. but most demons see you as an outcast cause of your wings but you as specail as can be. What kind of demon are you? brought to you by Quizilla I'm boring why is YOUR livejournal annoying? brought to you by Quizilla (*sniff* Is it...true?) You are Xuan Wu! Mythological background: Because the turtle has a thick, solid shell that serves as protection - this animal is associated with stability. You enjoy intellectual pursuits. Also, in Feng Shui (the Chinese myths behind choosing a house), the black turtle's solidity is used to protect from cold northern winds. Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You? brought to you by Quizilla That's all for now. Gotta go do stuff. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Stuff from Nightmare Before Christmas (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
9:38 pm	Eclipse Wow. I love eclipses. There's a lunar ecplipse on right now. Unfortunately, I'm only getting to watch the first part of it. The moon won't turn red until around 11:30. I just can't stay up that late. I've been sleep deprived and under the weather enough as it is, I need all the rest I can get. :-( I may set my alarm for 11:30 and try to see it, but I don't think I'll be able to see it from my window anymore by then. BUT I WANNA WATCH IT!!! Lost was great. Coined a new word today: Chipmunkgasm. ^_^ Anyways, that's all. May stay up and sleep in English tomorrow. We're watching Sleepy Hollow, soo....^_^ Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: "Good to be in DC" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
8:50 pm	Almost Chipmunk Day! Caroline and I have declared every Wednesday Lost is on Chipmunk Day. Every other Wednesday (or other day at all) doesn't matter. We're such geeks. The weekend visiting Matt was fun. Went shopping at all the antique stores in Galena. Bought lots of records and a few new pins, some incense, and this ubervintage 40's/50's feather headband. I would have used it with my can can dancer hallowenn cistume, but unfortunately, when Mom and I went to get my costume last night, the only costume they had was too big and it was ripped. :-( Instead, I got this black fairy costume. It's uber pretty. ^_^ I think it's supposed to be girly, but I'm wearing my uberspikey bracelet and fishnet armwarmers with it anyways. Lol. I think I'm cursed. There was this one shop we went to. It was so creepy. They had this African mask that was really scary, the puppets that look like something out of a horror movie, what looked like a little birds next of a rock, but was really a little birds nest on a human skull, and this Jesus icon from the 1700's that looked like it would come alive at any minute. So creepy. I wanted it. They also had a Voodoo drum. I cast aside every thing I've ever learned from every horror movie I've ever seen and banged on it. Mockingly. Then I was scared I was cursed, so played it again, "backwards" and did a little 'voodoo dance.' You had to see it. Nevermind. Lol. I want to go back!!! In another store they had a gold palted photo album with pictures that were probably from the late 1800's-early 1900's. They were really scary. And so lifelike. Again, like something out of a horror movie. Yeah, I got out of there fast... There was a running joke going on that Barb stole an air freshener from a car parts store, then kicked a little kid and stole his five pennies, even though she found all that stuff on the ground. We actually had fun. So the first night we were there, mom came back to our room with a gourd. They stole it because it looks insanely like a snake. I drew eyes and nostrils on it and named it Gordon. Am I fucked up or what? :-P Yeah, so that's all for the weekend really. Got my LOTR symphony tickets the other day. Uberhappy. ^_^ I think it's amazing how my extreme excitement about concerts has gone down recently. it's not so much I'm not excited about who I'm going to see, it's just that concerts aren't a rare thing for me anymore. I've gone so often just this past year (Crack the Sky 3 times, Skitzo Calypso, They Might be Giants, Jimmy Buffett finally, TSO - but I have an excuse to celebrate there cuz, hey, FRONT ROW SEATS, BABY!, and others) that I don't jump up and down screaming every time mom or dad get tickets to something. Ah, well. Hmm...not much else is going on. Doing the Open House thing for Film Club on Sunday. A few poeple reviewed m fanfic on the site I posted it on. They all want me to write more, and I said I would, but I don't know how to. It was meant to be a one-shot fic. I ended it as a one shot fic. AHHHHHHGGGGGHH!!!!! I feel so bad for Charles. He's having so many problems with school stuff and family and this guy he's seeing. He's just so stressed and I don't know how to make him feel better. Poor Ufa. :-( Anyways, that's all. Adios, amigos! Current Mood: good Current Music: Collective Soul "Shine" (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 21st, 2004
6:24 pm	Fanfiction Wheeee! I wrote a fanfic today! My first one in ages! It's a Lost fanfic, 100% fluff, with a Charlie/Claire pairing. I <3 chipmunk... Anyways, If you've been watching Lost, go read it and tell me what you thought. Also, Balus Mirein = Blow me in German. Mat Dessesa is a sick bastard. Souffler moi. Hehe. ^_^ I'm going to St. Clem now to help mom with blood drive stuff. Adios. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "The Tide is High" Blondie (Comment on this)
Monday, October 18th, 2004
6:13 pm	What's this? An UPDATE?! Wow! Is a miracle! Anywhooo.... the events since Homecoming. I seriously gotta start updating more often. Before I forget, I just want to add that Lost is the BEST FUCKING SHOW EVER!!! Is it Wednesday yet?! I can't think of much that's terribly interesting before the Friday before the last (the 8th). It was the easiest day I've ever had. First 3 mods: History. Drew on a map. Simple. Two mods off. Read Eragon. Still not finished it! Then we were supposed to have geometry, but Mrs. Willan never showed up. Mr. Schick was there and we were talking about Zappa and stuff and everyone was waiting for the teacher and when after a while she didn't show Mr Schick wanted to call the office, but we wouldn't let him leave or touch the phone. It was hilarious. So after about 10 minutes, he let us go. Mr Schick is cool. Today was the Sophomore class picnic, so Mrs Willan was outside organizing it. She could have at least told us she wouldn't be there, but whatever. So next mod I ate pizza and hung out with everyone. Also spent first mod of English eating pizza. Fun fun ness! Then in English we read the poems we wrote. Then we left. Then came the best part of my day: mods 11, 12, and 13 off. During 11 I just hung out and read, then me, Caroline, and Matt were asked to water the Respect Life tree. Oh, we watered that tree good! Lol. We got into a HUGE ice fight and Caroline and I went back inside soaking wet, while Matt was the only semi-dry one. Also, me and Caroline FINALLY succeeded in jumping over the hedges without falling. OH YEAH! So we had about 5 minutes left in the mod, so Matt just HAD to go see Mrs Parvis, and almost got us in trouble with Mr Piercy. I hate Mr Piercy with a fiery passion. I MISS MRS GAUTHIERE!!! *sigh* Anywhoo. So yeah. 'Twas my day. Good times. Let's see...what else... Saturday was the yard sale in dad's neighborhood. Got quite a few good records, a Desiderata poster, which is a beautiful poem, an uberspiffycool Japanese picture, and 2 CD's. After I got home, Bard called me and told me she'd gone to this thrift store in Edgewood and found for me DARK SIDE OF THE FUCKING MOON! *sniff* it's beautiful! Yay. Umm...very little worth mentioning happened between then and this past Friday, so I'll continue there. Friday I went to Ultrazone with Melissa. Geeze, I hadn't been there in ages. *sigh**nostalgia* Lol. Heh. There was this guy there who was hitting on me the entire time. In the room where we put our vests on, we were talking, so I didn't think much of it. But then he showed me and Melissa a place by one of the bases where you can hide out that not many people know about. THEN I knew he was hitting on me. He was kinda cute. Nothing special, but it's not like anything could've happened anyway cuz he was 23. Yeah. In the second game we played, there were a bunch of RPGers there, and I started hanging out with one. I think he was hitting on me too, but if he was, it wasn't as obvious. Damn, Two fuking people in one fucking night hit on me and I can't date either of them. *sigh* May I just add, that people who wear light clothes to a laser tag game are STUPID. It is the cardinal rule of laser tag! DON'T WEAR LIGHT COLORS! YOU STAND OUT! MOVING TARGET! MORONS!!! Ack. You probably shouldn't eve wear blue jeans (which is a mistake I made), because they stand out too. Black, dark green, dark blue. Perfect colors for laser tag. Anyway, I'm rambling. Saturday was...interesting. I went to that Spirit of Rock thing that everyone said they were gonna go to, when really it was only me and Matt. But it was cool. I saw Skitzo Calypso live for the first time. They were good, but the guys' microphone wasn't very loud. So Matt introduced me to the band after their set, which was cool, and I got a CD of theirs. So the next band sucked, and we wandered around and called Aycock (who came back for the weekend! EEEEEP!!!) to see where he was and he just couldn't be their, which sucked. So the next band that either of us cared about was on at 7, and by then we it was only about 3 something. Neither of us wanted to stay that whole time, so we asked if we could leave, then come back, which we figured we could since they gave us wristbands, but nooooo. Matt came back later that night to see Gold Mind Squad, but I couldn't. So we left and walked down about a mile to HCC where Matt was parked, then drove down a side rode where we SAW a sign for a "huge yard sale", but the yard sale wasn't their. Oh, well. Matt drove down the rode at almost 70 in a 35 mph zone while I was yelling "OMFG MATT SLOW DOWN!" (This is a different Matt, not my brother Matt. If my brother Matt tells mom about this, he dies). So we went back to the parking lot to wait for mom to come and get me. We were blaring the Korn cover of "Another Brick in the Wall" which is actually really good, even though I generally don't like Korn. So we hung out for a while, then mom came and we left. If you haven't heard, there was a HUGE accident on I-95. It's quite scary. We were stuck in traffic for about an hour. The news says there were 11 different accidents, and about 90 cars total. Fifty people were taken to hospitals, but thankfully no one was killed, which is absolutely amazing. The really scary thing is, mom and I were about 3 minutes away from being in an accident ourselves. What happened to screw everybody up was it was raining really hard, but the sun was shining bright and you couldn't see anything. It was horribly dangerous (obviously), but eerily beautiful. I wish I had a camera to take a picture of the roads and the way the water sprayed up from under the cars, maiing it look like a fog or a mist. It was incredible. Thankfully, we were all safe. That night, dad came and picked me up and on the way to his house, we listened to the new TSO album. It fucking rocks!!! So happy. We got pizza, then when we got to his house, we watched George Carlin at Carnegie Hall, which included the ever so famous 7 Dirty Words: Shit, Piss, Fuck, Cunt, Cocksucker, Motherfucker and Tits. Can say on some TV after 10, can always say, can't say, can't say (thankfully), can't say, can't say, can say sometimes. All words can he said on HBO, of course. I'm gonna find the list of all the cusses ever made and post them eventually. So Sunday morning. Woke up, ate scrambles eggs, had a good political discussion, went to Ren Fest. Had the best time. We saw Puke & Snot, Shakespeare's Skum, Bloody Drama, and some Rat guy. Yeah. I got this uberawesome phoenix ring. V. Cool. On Friday and today we've been playing the band game on the bus. *sniff* Like lacrosse... Anyway, Friday we played and I showed off my madd geek skillz to all. Unfortunately, I lost because I had to leave. Today it was Marisa and Caitlin who lost badly, Mike and Steve, and me and Chris. We kicked ASS!!! We got the guys on Al Yankovick, when I could think of about 4 K bands off the top of my head. Good times. So that's it. Nothing else big. This update took almost an hour to write. Wow. Ttfn, amigos. Current Mood: blah Current Music: "The Sun Is A Mass of Incandescent Gas" by TMBG (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
8:28 am	Best Night EVER! I went to Homecoming last night and had the best night in the world. This is actually kinda weird cuz two days ago I didn't even WANT to go to Homecoming, but by the time I was all prettied up and on my way there I was so excited. ^_^ Okay, the events of the night. When I got there the forst person I saw was Charles (looking uberspiffycool) and we were jumping up and down saying how pretty we both looked. :-P So we hung outside for a while waiting for everyone then when Tim, Allie, Kpax, and his date arrived we got in line and figured we'd catch up with Caroline later. Well, Caroline was actually the first one there, but she was inside and they wouldn't let her in because someone had stolen her ticket and her name was on the list, but she still had to wait for a while until everyone else was in to see if we could get in. So I spent a half hour in the auditorium waiting with her and hanging out. I have a picture of her in a dress! *saves for future blackmail* Mwahahahahaha. So we (well, the people who didn't have a ticket) had to stay 5 minutes afetr to help clean up. I just stayed cuz I wanted to steal decorations. Anyways, we eventually got into the dance. And headed to the cafeteria where it was practically dead. Why? Because they were playing COUNTRY! Ugh! EVIL (I don't care WHAT you say, Matt)! :-( So we went to the gym where they were playing rap and crappy techno, got bored, went to the cafeteria. First, I should make clear that the theme was Viva Las Vegas. There were cards, funky dice balloons...all kinds of stuff. Well, in keeping with the theme, in the cafeteria they had and ELVIS IMPERSONATOR! It was fucking great! We laughed our asses off and Stan was goofing off and it was good times. So we spent a little time gravitating between the gym and the cafeteria where we found Byron, Joe, and his gf. In the gym, me and Caroline did this funky lesbian dance thing that we got a picture of. Must make sure to get rid of picture before mom sees it... :-P I think everyone thought that either Caroline and I were together, or Charles and I. I hang out a lot with Charles, and since most people think he's straight, and think I'm straight, they probably think we're together or something. And if not that, then they definately think Caroline and I are together. In the auditorium when Mr Johnson asked how I lost my ticket I hugged Caroline and said "Oh, I have my ticket but I'm here with her." :-P Caroline's bi, and I love her to death, but no. Anywhoo... So we went back to the cafeteria and watched "Elvis" for a while longer when the fucking coolest/creepiest thing happened. He got off the stage and started singing to me and put his sweaty scarf around my neck. It was gross, but I'll cherish it forever. :-P But just the whole thing was HILARIOUS! Must remember to ask Mike for picture later... So Byron took me, Caroline, and Joe and Linds to Friendly's. We had a great time. Byron and Caroline were snorting sugar and Sweet N Low with a rolled up dollar bill, and we all toasted with packs of sugar. See? I'm NOT the only one who's sick enough to swallow entire packets of sugar! ^_^ All the girls stole these really long sundae spoons. I put mine down my top and walked out with it. It's actually quite good for your posture... So we all had a good time, then crowded back in the car (in the backseat it was four people, with one person on everyone's lap. Lol.) and raided the school for cool decorations. There were these huge posters in the gym, AT LEAST 20 feet tall, that me and Caroline stole. I have NO clue where I'll put it, but I'm one of only two people who has such a cool thing. ^_^ There were these cool big dice things that Caroline wanted, but they wouldn't let her take them. They also had these silouette Jazz musician standups that I wanted SO bad, but one was already taken down, and Ms. Pyzik had one for someone else. :-/ Ah, well. In addition to my huge poster, I got a club, a big card, a balloon (I let Caroline have the funky dice balloon, while I took another one), and a dollar sign. It was great; just grabbing stuff we liked as we went along. So after I said my goodbyes to everyone, mom said she was caught in traffic at the enterance to the school, so I had to walk down and meet her. Carrying a huge poster that was even too big folded up, my spoon in my bag, and a souvenier cup with my camera in it. In the RAIN. So we went home, and I tried to go to sleep. I went to bed a little after midnight, but couldn't actually get to sleep til after 3. It's 9:02 as I type this, and I've been up since about 8. Will have to nap before going to the Fells Point Festival. So that's it. I'm so happy everyone pushed me into going (yay peer pressure!). And all in one night, Caroline and I got together, broke up, then had (figurative) hot lesbian make-up sex in the back of Byron's mom's car. Kinky, huh? :-P Current Mood: happy Current Music: Stone Roses stuff (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
5:42 pm	kjsfidhujyfudj The bad news is, I'm sick. I left school early today just cuz I was feeling so horrible. The good news is, I just saved a bunch of money on car insurance my switching to Geico. Hah, jk. Yeah... The REAL good news is we got FRONT ROW seats to the TSO show on December 14th! ^_^ Current Mood: sick Current Music: Moulin Rouge soundtrack (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 25th, 2004
9:24 am	Un Update Hmmm....mot much has been going on. As I said earlier, TMBG rocked. Apparently that night Kpax said something in his journal that made everyone think he was gonna kill himself. I talked to Charles yesterday and he felt so bad cuz he thought it was something he said that made Kpax write what he wrote. Fortunately, Kpax wrote something later putting eveything into proportion. So everything should be cool now, but it's was still really scary what he wrote. :-/ AJ signed on last night. But it couldn't have been AJ. I IMed him but, didn't get a response. *wonders what happened*? Yeah, nothing much else is up. Current Mood: blah Current Music: New TMBG Album (Comment on this)
Friday, September 24th, 2004
6:24 am	Pisoooooooo... Since I'm getting ready for school, I don't have much time to write, but let me just say this: OMFG TMBG ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The concert was AWESOME. ^_^ Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "Birdhouse In Your Soul" TMBG (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 12th, 2004
4:58 pm	*sigh* First (almost) full week of school. Nothing went horribly worng, which is good. It's actually been almost...fun. At times. >_> [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<_<>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] First (almost) full week of school. Nothing went horribly worng, which is good. It's actually been almost...fun. At times. >_> <_< >_> So I'm not gonna go over the whole week. We'll just start with last night. Crack the Sky. HELL YEAH. They fucking rocked (as usual). Jimmie's Chicken Shack opened for them, and they were really good as well. Though I think it's increibly cool that a band that kinda sorta made it big opened for a band that probably a max of only a few thousand people have heard of. Crack played Sea Epic, which I swear I never thought I would hear them play (it was AWESOME), and Techni Generation. Unfortunately, they didn't play White Music or I Wanna Be John Lennon. :-( Oh, well. But they did do that REALLY cool thing when they're playing Surf City and they go from that to a Beatles song then back again. SO COOL. :-D So I just found out AJ, one of my best friends (who incidently I've never met in person..we met on TORN), will be leaving for the Air Force next Monday. Am really upset. I know I'll be able to write to him and everything, but it still won't be the same as talking on AIM at 2 in the morning (11pm his time...). Ack, I know I'm gonna cry my eyes out when he's gone. God, I'm so horribly lame. Lol. But... Dammit, why couldn't he go to college like regular people?! >:-O *sigh* Current Mood: sad Current Music: Crack the Sky "From The Greenhouse" (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 5th, 2004
9:05 pm	Wonderboy Today I'm just in a mood where I wanna cry at everything. It's not really depressed/suicidal crying this time, but...it's weird. So I'm watching this thing today and Jack Black was in it and I started thinking about Wonderboy and how much I loved that song and video when I was a kid. SO I download the song and I'm listening to it all day and I'm like "omg this is cool". Then just a little while ago I watched the video...Holy shit I forgot how sad yet sweet it was. I remember back years ago wehn I was a huge fantasy freak (almost as big of one as I am now. lol). I LOVED that video...maybe I was just to young to get it all though. We went to see Matt at college today...I was okay most of that time... God, I don't know what's up with me today. Maybe I'm being nostalgic, maybe it's just hormones. I mean, it is that time of the month...(and I bet you all REALLY wanted to know that lol!!!). *sigh* I don't know... Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Tenacious D "Wonderboy" (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
6:33 pm	First Week Of School... My first week of being a sophmore... Tuesday was he Fresh./Spoh. first official day. We went by a Monday schedule, which meant I had Geometry forst 3 bloody mods. The teacher seems at least nice, but I know it won't be an easy class. I told her Barb was cheap and had to order the book off Amazon then the order got cancelled and the bookstore didn't have it, so she lent me one so I could do my homework. The only thing I really don't like is we'll have a quiz every day. Then I had computer science. It should be really easy. I know pretty much everything excepta program called Access, but it shouldn't be too bad. The good thing is, both my off mods I'm off with Caroline, so at least I'm not sitting alone at the table reading. So (yay!) we're both in the same Sacraments class. We both kinda thought the teacher we be really annoying since she's happy...like...all day every day...I still think she's on some kind of nice drug. Or maybe she gets botox every day and can't not smile. Lol. Nah, jk. She's really nice. She even said herself that she'll make it as easy as possible for us to pass. :-D Also, my favorite part...2 whole classes I've had with her, and about .2 percent of it was about religion. I doubt it'll be that way the whole year, but... So then we went back to the cafeteria and hung out before I went to Spanish. There's something I don't get though. I'm in Honors Spanish 2 this year. Last year, Ms. Zavodney handed out papers to certain people that said if we want to be in Honors 2 next year, have your parents sign it and turn it in. I did not get mine signed, I didn't turn it in, and I even told her I don't want to be in that class. Yet, I'm there. It actually really bugged me, especially since the first class the teacher spoke in pretty much NOTHING but Spanish. Everyone except the smart kids couldn't understand a bloody word she said, which then got me all worried cuz I was afraid I'd miss something important. So yeah... Biology's all right. I'm not too worried for first semester, which is just written work. Second semester is when we'll start cutting stuff open. Not good. But the teacher seems pretty cool, sooo... Then World History II. The teacher's cool. The class should be relatively easy. Hell, it can't get any harder than Seufert made it... So yeah it's good. At the end of the day I had a massive effing headache (like I always do the first day of school). So Thursday was the first day for the entire school together. 3 mods of Comp Science: easy. It was all PowerPoint. I only had a little troubl cuz my thing wouldn't let me do something right. But at the beginning of class he let us mess around on the computer for like 10 minutes. 'Twas cool. 3 mods of Sacraments wasn't hard either. We just...talked. It was cool. :-D My English teacher is AWESOME. She's a huge music fan. V. cool. Biology we just took notes. Which, of course, is what I'm best at. :-D Thursday Mod 11 is the equivilent on Wednesday mod 12 from last year. Hectic. Loud. I hung out with Catherine. World History was okay. I think every year I've ever had history/ social studies we've started with maps. I can't recall a year we haven't. WHY IS THAT?!?!?!?!??!?! Spanish this time was much better. It's okay if he speaks Spanish, just so logn as I understand her. When she's teaching, though, she'll speak mostly in English which is great cuz I woulda been lost otherwise. And it's all stuff I learned last year anyway. I still with I was in Ms. Zavodney's class though... Friday. Oh, God, Friday... It was awful. Don't get me wrong, it's very cool that we got the author to come speak, but he was so BORING. He spoke for like an hour, then we watched a video, THEN we had a horribly boring Q&A thing (which really pretty much every question was exactly the same, just worded differently), THEN a ton of people read their overly long essays. We were there over two hours. Thank GOD we got to sit in chairs, cuz my back would have been killing me if I had been one of the poor souls in the bleachers... So after the assembly, we did this thing where they asked us what our favorite part was and what was inspirational or some shit...Last year for the Tuesdays With Morrie thing, I was a stupid freshie and BSed my way through it. This year I flat-out told then how much I hated it. Then we had a half-hour lunch, then right back to work. We did a few paper things then a chapter discussion thing (thankfully, we didn't get to do the chapter I had to do but hadn't read!) then everyone read their essay. Time started getting short, so everyone else just had to paraphrase. 5 sentences and I'm done. :-) All in all it was one of the most horribly boring days of my life. Am so happy we got out at 1:35. So year my first week hasn't been too bad. I'm not happy with all the homework I've been getting, but it'll get better. Today I played paintball at Karen's birthday party. I'm in pain. Yeah. That's all. My fingers hurt. Current Mood: groggy Current Music: TV Guide Channel Spider-Man 2 thing... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
9:58 am	No, I'm not dead. I've just been too lazy to update. Not much has been happening, really. Sent Matt off to college, got my school books and stuff...and that's really all important that's happened. Yeah. I'll probably be updating more often once school starts. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: K-9 to 5 theme O.o (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
3:21 pm	A-whoot! Mom said I can go to Crack AND TMBG!!! She and I are gonna go to Crack, and El and I are going to TMBG. She didn't really know who they were, but then I played a few songs today and she thinks theyr're great. So yay. Speaking of today's guitar lesson... I learned 3 TMBG songs (Istanbul, Particle man, and Experimental Film), American Pie, 5 O'Clock Somewhere, Crazy Little Thing Called Love, and Me and Bobby McGee. Then I just taught myself Smelly Cat. :-D So I'm getting tickets today probably and all is right with the world. Current Mood: happy Current Music: TMBG "Experimental Film" (1 Comment |Comment on this)